These days I feel like I’m putting a part of myself on the back burner and discovering different facets of myself. I don’t want to say I’m “shedding” that very important aspect of myself, but I certainly haven’t been nurturing it much as of late. And it probably doesn’t take a genius to figure out what that precious aspect of myself is (hint: check out the date of my last entry and this one).

Obviously I’m not much of a blogger (aha understatement), but I’ve always tried to put in a few hours of writing time into a story or two (I have multiple work-in-progresses depending on the whims of my muses [yes, plural]) once a week or so. And sadly, I haven’t even been doing that lately. Seems like my writing muses have all gone on an extended winter break (and it’s spring now so imagine the fun they must be having). Not to worry, though, because while my writing muses are partying it up in Cancun or some other place where it’s warm all year round (AH California homesickness kicking in), I’m having a blast just finding out about other stuff I’m APPARENTLY interested in. Funny how they’ve been lying low–all latent–inside of me for like 19 years, but life’s funny that way.

I guess my one huge priority right now is to grow ever deeper in my faith. As I become more involved with InterVarsity’s mission @ Baruch, I’m not only developing more of a passion for God but in humanity as well. I mean, I see it now. I see it in the news, I see it in on the subways, I see it in the darkening streets as I walk home after my last class. And my heart breaks for people, for these strangers, for their living situations, for the circumstances they must be under to look so… lost. I can’t believe I’ve managed to ignore so much until now. Brandon Heath summarized it perfectly in his song when he sang: “All those people going somewhere; why have I never cared?“

In conjunction to that, I’ve also been getting glimpses of what God wants from me in the future. I think for the first time in a really long time I see a vague shimmer of a path set before me, and I can honestly say that it’s because I stopped worrying and fretting about what to do to secure a good future for myself and really place all my worries in God’s hands and letting Him take control of the steering wheel for once.

Let’s just pray that I won’t become a backseat driver.

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“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

– Jeremiah 29:11